Year of Wellness

When you have been sick for as long as I have been, believing that you will feel well again can be difficult.  Sometimes I forget what it feels like to be well.  To be honest, I have forgotten what it feels like not to be sick.  It isn't that I dwell on being unwell.  Just, it is that I forget that recovery is possible.

Recovery has many definitions. Webster’s New World Dictionary (1970), defines recovery as: a regaining of something lost or stolen, a return to health, consciousness, etc., a regaining of balance, control, composure, etc.

As I was driving to my doctor's for one of my regular visits, I was shocked to discover that I haven't been envisioning what it would be like to be well again!  I haven't aimed to feel better.  My focus was on anything but getting better!  Was it because I didn't think I would be well?

When I got to my parking spot, I turned off the ignition and had to sit there awhile to gather my thoughts.  When was I planning to feel well?  I don't want to be adjusting my medication, monitoring my thoughts and checking my moods forever, do I?  So...

It was like stumbling upon a lottery ticket.  Or, finding a $100 dollar bill and getting to keep it.  Yes, I want to be well.  I want it to be soon.  Okay!  I am going to "plan" to be well soon.  I will keep striving towards wellness.  This is MY commitment:

This year, I will make my health my number one priority.  My family and I will put our own needs first.  We will work hard on getting better together.  We will get well soon.

Putting yourself first to get better, sooner, isn't selfish.  It doesn't matter how long this is going to take.  Make it  your priority to get well.  I deserve to feel well, and so do you.  C'mon, join me.  We will get well together!

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Road To Recovery

I got to get going
If I don't leave now
I will miss my chance
I got to get moving
I don't want to be late
I have a chance
There is a wide area to let me pass
It is very clear
So I got to go now while I can
There is no one to stop me
I got to get going
The road of recovery is just ahead of me
I can trust my beloved to help me
I got to get moving to recovery
If I miss the chance there is no turning back
There is no one to stop me but myself
I must follow the road to recovery
I got to go now
The clear opening is closing
I must make my choice now
I'm running
Running as fast as I can to the end of this road
I will be able to live again
I'm got to keep moving
I don't want to end this way
I'm on the road to recovery
There is no one stopping me
I got to keep moving
This will be my new beginning
I must keep going
On the road to recovery... 

Credit:  Munches2008